Haha now I guess I actually have something to talk about. I don’t remember if I talked about it here, but I applied for the JET (Japan Exchange and Teaching) Program for Fall 2016 and got rejected. For people interested in Japan/Japanese culture, that’s probably the most well known program where you can work in Japan for a year and all expenses are (pretty much) paid either as a teaching assistant or a coordinator for international relations (CIR). I could never picture myself teaching in front of a class of kids, so I applied for the CIR position. The CIR position isn’t as clear cut as the teaching position, but I was hoping to be able to put my 4 years of Japanese study to good use. At the moment, I can’t find anything else to do. This was one of the reasons I was so anxious about focusing on my Japanese; you have to be at a certain level to apply for the position so I definitely wanted to be at that level if I got the interview. There was also an option that you can choose to be considered as an assistant language teacher if they felt your skills were more qualified in that position. Apparently I was not qualified for either.
I had a nagging feeling I wouldn’t be picked, just like the Korean grad school feeling, but I guess a part of me just hoped that that feeling was just anxiousness or something. Now I know for sure that I got rejected. At least the wait is over. I can’t tell if I’m “heartbroken” or not. On the plus side, I don’t have to wait for an interview, but I can’t quite relax because I really need a job. I’m looking into some other stuff now.
At least I got my books that I’ve been waiting for. Maybe that gift to myself cushioned the blow of rejection…
Edit: just read through some old posts and realized I haven’t talked about getting rejected from the Korean grad school either. Hmmmm. Well since I keep saying I’m not doing anything, I was rejected by that program, too. To keep you all from reading very repetitive things, I’ll just summarize my feelings: they’re the same as above. I had that nagging feeling that I wouldn’t be accepted, but there was still a little glimmer of hope. Possibly because I feel like I know I’ll be rejected, it cushions the blow when I actually am. That’s all. Nothing too devastating.
I think I’m going to start reading my new light novels tomorrow: 12 Kingdoms.