Art Takes Time

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and all that jazz! It’s a day late, but I enjoyed the time with my family so I’m happy. :3 How about you?

Today was the anniversary of DBSK/JYJ’s debut. I didn’t “celebrate” it, but I did do something different-ish. Went to Walmart with my grandma and bought cheap art supplies for my artistic side. I didn’t mention this here, but I found an art outlet that looks really fun. It’s called Mixed Media, and just like it sounds, you use a lot of different media to create an art piece. My favorite person is this vlogger:

Literally all of her work is beautiful! <33

So I don’t want to completely dive into Mixed Media, but I did want to try it at least once. So my plan was to get a new sketchbook that I will draw in to improve my drawing skills, and decorate the cover through Mixed Media. I kind of succeeded? I had a certain image in my head, and of course when I actually did it, it didn’t come out that way…but for my first try, it still came out well…err…okay.

Anyway, pictures!

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The supplies I bought today.

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Started off by applying Mod Podge (basically a glue-like substance) and putting a crumpled napkin around the cover. The crumples add texture to the cover which is good, because I didn’t really like the actual texture of the sketchbook. The crumpled napkins felt good. I thought about putting a second layer on top of the first because napkins tear easily, but I couldn’t be bothered. >_<

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I applied gesso (it’s a sealer that allows you to paint on different surfaces) and the paint I bought! It has color!!!

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Then I glued little trinkets/embellishments/other stuff around the cover. Since I wanted to use the sketchbook, I left the back cover more plain than the front. The quote says “Live the life you imagined.” I would have written that in Sharpie or something, but I couldn’t find any markers around my house -_- Soooo I had to paint it in…I’ve always sucked with paints, so it didn’t turn out the best. Oh well. Even if others can’t read it, it’s my sketchbook. I know what I wanted to write.

I worked on this from about 5:30 (in the evening) to 11:30 (at night), including clean-up time. I don’t think I’ll be doing another one of these for a while…it was fun though.

Thank You!

Ok, is it sad that I’m so happy I have four followers! xD Thank you all!!!

Today, I didn’t do anything, but my grandma had lunch with the pastor of our church. We’ve been members since the church started, so naturally we’re all pretty close. Oh yeah, I decided not to go to church last Sunday (if you read my previous post). I was falling asleep by the time my grandparents were waking up, so there was no way I could make it. @_@ My grandma understood though; she knew I would fall asleep. Anyway, Grammy went to lunch with the pastor, and when she came back, she returned with a gift from our pastor! She gave me a Panera Bread gift card, some stuff from Mary Kay, and a book full of inspirational passages based off of scriptures. It’s amazing that even though I haven’t been to church in awhile (it’s gotten a lot harder to go since I’ve been in college and haven’t been home), she still seems to remember what kind of stuff I like. I’ve seen girls my age that like heavy and bold makeup, but that’s just not me. I got sample lip glosses and hand cream (that IS me). Oh and I got two samples of perfume! (I LOVE PERFUME!! One day I want to have a huge collection of perfume bottles, whether they’re full or empty. The bottles are usually pretty too.) Basically, I’m really thankful she still thinks about me. I want to get her a nice gift as well. She usually likes writing in journals, so I’ll probably get a really nice one for her to write in.

Gift from Pastor

Isn’t the bag pretty too?! My favorite color is purple ^_^

I trimmed (with actual hair shears) my split ends yesterday. I had been holding off on it because a lot of people said you really shouldn’t use regular scissors to cut your hair, and I just didn’t want to buy the shears. But I found 3 pairs for ~$11, and the pair I used cut my hair really well. I guess I got rid of all the split ends, haha. I’m still new to taking care of my hair >.< I also deep conditioned. I can tell it’s a LOT more moisturized than before _-_ I just have to keep it up!

I also got new boots! Merry Christmas to me! x3 I bought them for myself cause I was searching for the style of boots with a high heel AND a platform so they would be comfortable. I finally found a pair for $29.40!!! I’ll upload a picture later, because they’re not near me now.

I’m just ranting, so if you’ve made it this far in the post, I applaud you! I’m starting a new “project” for the New Year. In terms of what I said I wanted to do in this post, I think I’ll start the year off focusing on drawing and keeping up with Korean. I have a Japanese class so I don’t have to put too much emphasis on it. In January (New Year’s Resolution that I can hopefully keep up with), I want to do a challenge where I draw something everyday. It doesn’t have to be a complete picture, but at least get in five minutes of drawing time. Since I’ll be bored in class, it shouldn’t be too hard because I’ll most likely doodle on my notes. But that’s the goal-start off small, work my way up. As for Korean…I really don’t have a plan. @_@ I’ll just have to go with the flow on that. After I get in the habit of consistently drawing and studying my languages, then I’ll make time to dance (I’ll work on a plan later).

I can’t believe there is only one more week of December left! This year went by so quickly! I’m sure next year will fly by too-especially since I’ll be preparing for graduation and thinking about what I want to do with my life. I’m still so lost 😦

Confused

It hasn’t really been an eventful time since I left school. I’m trying to get on a “normal” schedule. I’ve been sleeping during the day and awake pretty much all night lately. Yesterday, I went to the movies with my mom, grandma and younger sister! *the most eventful thing that’s happened since I’ve been back* We saw Annie (the African American/Black version), and it was pretty good. I thought I wouldn’t like it because I really like the original, but for a modern-21st century version, it was pretty good. I also saw one of my younger brother’s drawings from 2012. Really made me want to draw again. I helped teach him how to draw, and at this point he’s probably better than me now. I can’t lose to him! :p

My grandma is supposed to preach in church today (she’s an ordained minister), but I’m not sure if I want to go. I’m sure it would mean a lot to her since it’s the first time she’s preached in a long time, but I just can’t gather the spirit to want to go. I got in such a habit of not going. Truthfully, we could do the same things in our house without going to church-waste of gas and commuting time to get there. There are three other members that consistently go-that’s right three. Not the typical huge church with hundreds of people-three. And we worship in a hotel conference room, far out where nobody lives. Why? I just don’t see the point anymore…it’s almost 8:30am here. If I can sleep for a bit before it’s time to get ready to leave for church, then maybe I’ll go. Had another all-nighter tonight :/

Sequential Dates

In about 10 minutes, the day 12/13/14 (written the American way) will be over. This is the last sequential date for the next thousand years. I celebrated by sleeping all day 😅 Well I woke up at 6:30, learned about human anatomy and sketched for a bit, watched Monsters University for the first time, watched An Extremely Goofy Movie, then went to sleep around 3-ish. I slept until 11:30 (waking up from time to time then going back to sleep) I also ate breakfast three times-once when I first got up, once when my grandpa made it around 9, and once when my grandma made it at 1 in the afternoon. Since I was sleep, I didn’t eat dinner, so I’m going to do that now. Laterz!

Things I Want To Do:

I’m officially done with this semester, then one more semester until graduation. There are a lot of things that I want to improve, and I feel I should make a list so I can keep up with what I want to do. If it’s established now, I won’t have to sort my stuff out and suddenly make the decision to do it in January when everyone is making New Year’s resolutions. So, things I want to improve:

  • TIME MANAGEMENT!
  • Korean (TOPIK Level 4)
  • Japanese (JLPT 2)
  • Drawing-learning to be patient when it comes to art @_@
  • Computer science
  • Managing my finances/learning about investments

And on a smaller note/not much of a focus:

  • Dancing
  • Singing
  • Cooking

Ok, so maybe it’s not as much as it could be (?), but most of those things can be time consuming. Especially computer science and drawing. At least with languages, you can learn a little at a time and not feel bad; for the types of pictures that I want to draw (extremely detailed) they will take me time because I have to re-learn how to draw; I haven’t done it in so long. Last night, I made a list of all of the resources, strong and weak points, and how to improve my skills in Korean and Japanese. I also have an idea for a picture that could go along with what I want to write. I can make a schedule later on because I have the basics written down already. I’ll try my best to actually follow the schedule. @_@

Finally!

IT…IS…DONE!!!!!

History essay-check

Designing Websites in Japanese website proposal paper and presentation (both in Japanese)-check

Capstone (class that incorporates what we’ve learned over the four years, similar to senior project) presentation and paper (only the paper had to be in Japanese)-check

Computer science turtle project-check

Korean final-check!

All of my classes are done!!!! *dances in my room* I’m on break for about three and a half weeks now. When I got back home, I started watching something called The Hot Chocolate Nutcracker that Debbie Allen produced. It seemed good at first, but I was so tired from staying up all night the night before, that I fell asleep halfway through the movie/play. It was shown on TV, but it was in theater form. My grandma recorded it, so I can finish watching it later 🙂 I guess I’m not completely free yet. I still have to write something about public safety for my Korean class, but for some reason it’s easier to get through my Korean writing assignments than Japanese, despite my Japanese being at a higher level O.o I don’t understand my brain haha. Anyway, I’m back home, and can relax for a bit. This is wonderful.

Usually around finals time, I start ordering out more for food. I spent about $60 on food in this week alone @_@ My excuse is I ran out of food in my room (which is actually true) so ordering out is my only option. Going grocery shopping when I’m about to leave didn’t really make sense to me even if it probably would have saved me more money. If I finished my history essay when I wanted to (by Tuesday), I wouldn’t have kept ordering out cause I would have been home earlier. Oh well.

Speaking of that essay, working on the finals helped confirm what I already knew about why I don’t self study languages or anything else I want to learn. I have no self-discipline and am terrible at following schedules. But I do allot enough time (barely) to get done what needs to be done. For my last computer science homework, I got it turned in at 11:50 and it was due at 11:55. Same for both of my Japanese assignments. I know how to figure out exactly how much time is needed when a deadline must be met. That’s good and bad in a way. It’s good that I have a realistic perception of my time, but bad in the sense that because I know how I work, I wait until the last possible minute to work.

The reason I’m bringing this up is I’m considering doing a Master’s in computer science. I thought about doing the Korean Government Scholarship Program (KGSP) and focusing on Digital Media or Graphic Design (I have had an interest in that, but I thought my current school focuses more on the engineering aspects with a few classes for actually designing), but doing the CS class this semester made me happy. After you finally learn how to do it, it becomes pretty fun. My major is Applied Languages and Intercultural Studies with a concentration in Japanese, but because it’s a technical school, even if you’re not an engineer, you have to have some technology related classes as a requirement. Because we have that requirement, I took the computer science class and really liked it (got a 98 as my final grade ^^). So now I’m thinking of staying at that school because they have a really good computer science program. But computer science can take a lot of time and may seem tedious at times. If I want to try to handle a CS Master’s, I really need to learn how to manage my time.

Is it recommended to stay at the same school where you already have resources and whatnot, or should you try to expand your horizons and do something else. I would love to do my Master’s in Korea, but by the time I want to go to Korea (September 2015) even if I become able to speak Korean fluently, that fluency would most likely be in daily conversations. If I can’t do normal everyday things, how can I expect to do Computer Science? So what’s holding me back from that is having to take CS classes in Korean but not quite having the proficiency. Another thing is when applying for the KGSP, it’s best to do your Master’s in what you have experience in; whatever you studied at Undergrad, or if you have a lot of work experience. My major is completely different from CS and I have absolutely no work experience, except one internship I did at NASA back in high school. Not even that relates to computer science in any kind of way. I don’t think mentioning I took 2 CS classes would convince them that I’m ready to take CS in Korea. A Master’s degree is a big commitment in itself, but doing it in another country just makes it harder. I’m sure there are other ways to go to school in Korea, but KGSP seems to be the way to go when you don’t have a steady income. I would like to avoid loans for as much as possible.

Over the break, I’ll probably be worrying about this a lot. I might apply for the KGSP, but if I do that, I definitely want to start thinking of programs and what I want to do now. There seem to be a lot of requirements that need to be handled in in a timely manner. If I apply to KGSP, I might major in something related to International Affairs/Public Policy, but if I choose to stay here, I would do CS. I hate having to think about the future, but at least I have options to choose from.

Limbo

How long has it been since I made a post? Not too long I think, but it feels like it’s been forever. In the midst of trying to plan for my future, I got caught up in a whirlwind of “I still don’t know what the heck I want to do with my life.” I was hoping to do graduate school in Korea, but I’m not sure exactly what I would major in. I want to do Digital Media/Mass Communications, but I have no experience and it’s not related to my current major (in my undergrad). I have a few computer science classes under my belt, but I don’t think that would convince whichever university I want to go to that I have background knowledge in the area. I’ve also seen videos about some of the worst things to major in (even before watching the videos, I could tell you my major was on the list), and at first that discouraged me a little more. In the middle of watching one video, I realized these are short-sighted predictions based on what’s happening and what location they’re in now. Most of the videos were by Americans, so they’re only thinking about some of the worst majors for Americans IN America. What if I want to work outside of the country? You can’t tell me those same majors are useless. People that major in English (not me by the way) are said to have a bad job because all they can do is become a teacher. Yeah in America, that may lead to a job that would have to be emotionally satisfying (teachers in America aren’t paid anything basically), but they’re highly valued in places like Japan and Korea, and I’m sure those aren’t the only two places in the entire world where they’re looking and paying high salaries for teachers to teach their students English. I know not everyone wants to travel the world like I do, but it really is a good option to think about. If there aren’t too many options available in your area, look somewhere else. The world is full of places to go. Don’t limit yourself.

As for self-study:

I’ve been glancing at this Yonsei Reading book, but haven’t really had the time to get to it without feeling guilty about not focusing on my other work that’s actually required for school. I actually realized that in addition to the essay for my History class and project in my Japanese class, I have another essay I have to write in Japanese as my final paper. We finished our presentations Monday, so I had the illusion that I was completely done with the class, then realized I had the paper to go along with the presentation. I also FINALLY got my book for my history class, so I have to read that. I had to ask Amazon to send a replacement copy cause there’s no telling what happened to it at the post office. -_- Oh well, at least I got it. If I work hard, I can finish my Japanese essay (it’s due by 9 tonight and it’s 3:31AM now), and work on my Japanese project. If I need a break, I’ll read the book (there are 8 chapters and none of them are extremely long-just bearable). Then I’ll need to study for my Korean test on Monday (She’s letting us choose to take it either Monday, Wednesday or Friday, so I want to get it out of the way so I can be done by Tuesday). I plan to be finished with the book by Monday (206 pages in my native language is considered nothing), and done with the essay and whatever else I have to do on Tuesday. But back to the self study! So far, I’ve only read one essay and done the activities for that essay. I did find a site called Quick Korean that was blogged about by Korean Vitamin (koreanvitamin.wordpress.com). She posted one of the 3rd level courses and blogged about it, and through that, I was also able to watch it (I think you HAVE to register for the site). The lesson was good and it was taught all in Korean. Yay! for listening practice!!! I really liked the layout of the video too. First it starts with a short conversation, then explains the objectives of the lesson. Then they review the conversation (along with a transcript) explaining words that may not be known (still all in Korean). Following that, they have questions about the conversation/what was said as a review. Then they go on to explain the grammar (there were 2 points in this lesson) with examples, and review different examples. Then they have more listening exercises! To finish it off, they go over words and expressions that could be related to the topic. For this one, they were talking about “Personality”, so some of the words were impatient (at least that’s how I understood the explanation for it), quiet, calm. etc. The vocab/expression list wasn’t long so it wasn’t overwhelming, but you still learn something new (at least I did, but that could be because my vocab level isn’t where it’s supposed to be I think…) Anyway, all in all, it seems like a good program and I want to jump into it after I’ve finished my school work. I was hoping for the month of December to develop a schedule for studying so I could hit the ground running come New Year (when everyone is making their resolutions and stuff). I wanted to develop the habit of studying before the resolution so I can set goals and be more disciplined when it comes to attaining them.

If you couldn’t tell already, I am extremely bad with time management (as you can see in the above). This is another reason I’m not sure if I’m quite ready to handle a Master’s degree in who-knows-what. I should probably be better able to manage my time before I take on something of that proportion. But I do know that when it all comes down to it, I’ll get it done when it needs to be done cause that’s who I am. Welp, off to write this essay!